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Episodes
Begin anywhere. Each episode is an invitation — to stillness, to honesty, to the slow work of being made whole.
Subscribe via RSSInvitation · 0:53
Welcome — Don't Forget to Heal
An invitation to the journey. Apostle E opens the door to a space of restoration, deliverance, and tender truth-telling. Discover what this podcast is, who it's for, and why your healing matters to Heaven.
Inner Healing & Deliverance · 3:03
Inner Healing and Deliverance: Why Both Matter
What is inner healing? What is deliverance? And why does the soul need both? In this foundational episode, we unpack the difference between being set free and being made whole — and why God invites us into the fullness of both.
Restoration · 3:04
Permission to Heal
Many believers seek freedom but neglect healing. God desires both deliverance from bondage and restoration of the soul. This episode is an invitation to give yourself holy permission to slow down, sit with your wounds, and let the Healer tend to every tender place.
Soul Healing · 4:21
Healing Soul Wounds
Soul wounds are the unseen places where pain has shaped how we see God, ourselves, and others. In this episode, Apostle E gently names the wounds we carry — rejection, betrayal, abandonment, shame — and invites the Healer into every tender place. There is no wound too old, too hidden, or too deep for His mercy.
Truth & Freedom · 5:09
The Biggest Barrier to Healing — Lies We Believe
The greatest obstacle to healing is often not the wound itself, but the lies we've come to believe because of it. In this episode, Apostle E exposes the hidden agreements we've made with the enemy — about God, about ourselves, about our worth — and shows how the truth of who God says we are dismantles every lie and opens the door to lasting freedom.
Rejection & Belonging · 5:19
Healing from Rejection
Rejection is one of the deepest wounds the soul can carry — but it is not a wound God leaves untended. In this episode, Apostle E speaks directly to the ache of being overlooked, dismissed, or cast aside. Whether the rejection came from a parent, a partner, a friend, or a community, God sees the fracture it left behind. He invites us to let Him into the very place where we decided we weren't enough — and to discover, in His presence, that we were never abandoned, only beloved.
Forgiveness & Release · 5:03
Forgiveness is Part of Healing
Forgiveness is not a feeling — it is a doorway. In this episode, Apostle E explores why unforgiveness keeps our wounds open and how releasing others is not about excusing what happened, but about freeing ourselves to heal. God never asks us to pretend the pain didn't matter; He asks us to let Him carry the weight of it so we can walk forward whole.
Agency & Healing · 4:40
How to Choose Healing
Healing is not something that simply happens to us — it is something we must actively choose. In this episode, Apostle E unpacks what it means to make the daily, sometimes hourly, decision to pursue wholeness over numbness, truth over avoidance, and life over the familiar comfort of pain. God has already made healing available; the question is whether we will reach out and take it.
Father Wound & Restoration · 5:07
Healing the Father Wound
The father wound runs deeper than words can reach — it shapes how we see authority, provision, protection, and our place in the world. In this episode, Apostle E gently opens a space to name the absence, the disappointment, or the distance, and invites the Father of all fathers to heal what only He can restore.
Mother Wound & Nurturing · 9:30
Healing the Mother Wound
The mother wound can linger in places we don't even know to look — in how we nurture ourselves, trust others, or believe we are worthy of care. This episode is a tender exploration of the ache beneath the surface, and an invitation to let the Healer touch the very places where nurturing felt broken or withheld.
Deliverance & Discipline · 9:19
Deliverance and Maintaining Freedom
Deliverance is a beginning, not an ending. In this episode, Apostle E talks about what it takes to stay free after the chains fall off — the daily disciplines of guarding the mind, renewing the spirit, and building a life where the enemy no longer has a foothold.
Narrative & Truth · 5:14
Healing the Inner Narrative — The Stories We Tell Ourselves
We all carry stories — about who we are, what we deserve, and what is possible for us. Many of them were written in pain. This episode invites us to examine the inner narrative, to recognize which stories are lies, and to let the Spirit rewrite them with truth.
Church Hurt & Trust · 7:53
When Church Hurt Needs Healing
Church should be a place of safety, but for many it has been a source of deep wound. In this episode, Apostle E speaks with honesty and compassion about the pain of spiritual betrayal, leadership failure, and community brokenness — and how God still invites us to trust Him, even when His people have failed us.
Disappointment & Trust · 4:20
Healing From Disappointment With God
When prayers seem unanswered and hope feels deferred, disappointment can quietly settle into the soul. This episode names the ache of expecting more from God and invites us to bring our honest questions into His presence, where trust is tenderly rebuilt.
Wholeness & Flourishing · 5:27
Becoming Whole — Living Beyond Survival Mode
Many of us have learned to survive — but God is calling us to live. This episode explores what it looks like to move from coping to flourishing, from bracing for the next blow to walking in the wholeness Christ purchased for us.
Control & Trust · 10:17
Healing From Control — Learning to Trust God Again
Control can feel like protection when life has taught us that surrender is unsafe. In this episode, Apostle E explores the wounds beneath our need to manage every outcome and invites us to release fear, loosen our grip, and learn to trust God again — one honest step at a time.
Rest & Renewal · 8:21
When Your Soul Is Tired — Recovering From Emotional Exhaustion
Exhaustion is more than being busy — it is the soul crying out for rest. In this episode, Apostle E names the weariness that builds when we keep pouring out without being replenished, and points us to the rest Jesus offers for souls that have carried too much for too long.
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Coming Soon
Self-Awareness
The Person in the Mirror: Learning to Recognize Yourself
You cannot heal what you refuse to recognize. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E explores emotional triggers, blind spots, personal patterns, and the difference between what you intended and how you actually showed up.
Empathy
It's Not Always About You: Learning to See Beyond Your Own Experience
Understanding someone doesn't require agreeing with them. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E explores listening without defensiveness, recognizing another person's emotional reality, and developing compassion without abandoning boundaries.
Accepting Differences
Different Doesn't Mean Difficult: Making Room for People Who Aren't Like You
Not everyone has to think, feel, communicate, or respond like you. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E addresses personality differences, assumptions, emotional maturity, and why we sometimes label people difficult simply because they operate differently.
Emotional Healing
You Can't Keep Bleeding on People: Healing What Still Hurts
Your pain deserves compassion, but your patterns still require responsibility. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E explores emotional wounds, unresolved hurt, protective behaviors, and how old experiences can shape present-day reactions.
Emotional Regulation
Everything You Feel Doesn't Need a Reaction
Your emotions are information, not instructions. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E teaches the difference between reacting and responding, how to pause when triggered, and how to practice self-control without suppressing feelings.
Relational Maturity
You Can Be Right and Still Be Wrong in How You Handle People
Maturity is not just what you know — it's how you show up. In this upcoming episode, Apostle E explores accountability, communication, humility, emotional repair, and the ability to maintain relationships without needing to win every disagreement.